At Peace

Alas, peace... for now. I always get into these weird moods where I get super anal about where my life is heading and how I will achieve everything. I set these huge goals up for myself and strive towards them... for a couple of weeks. Then tiredness, work, lack of time, or laziness kicks in and I forget about the so-called huge goals I set for myself. Not this time though!!! I laid out a plan for my life not including anyone else and I am extremely happy with the path it has taken me and I am excited for the near future. I will be starting at CSUF in January and I am for one really thrilled that I know what I am doing with my education and now there is a light at the end of the tunnel. It may be a long tunnel but there is still a glimmer I can see. I have decided that I am double majoring at CSUF because I want to give myself more options when I finish my degree(s). I will be majoring in Sociology and Psychology (90% sure) so I will have more opportunities for graduate school. This path will take me a semester longer in school than I had hoped but who cares. If I get a whole second degree out of my basic education then it will be worth it. I am excited for this decision because I know I have the disciple to stay focused and succeed in doing so. 

The education aspect of my "plan" is just the beginning. I have been thinking a lot about life in general and we are all alone. As "emo" as that may sound it is true. We wake up alone, we work alone, eat alone, and sleep alone. Even though people might be in the room, conversation, or bed with you... you are still living alone. This has made me realize how much time is in a day and how much a person can take on. I can do so much in a day and why not live it up? I only have this one life to live and I need to make it the best I can. I am so lucky that I have people in my life to share these experiences with. 

I have also come to realize how important exercise is to my overall being. I haven't worked out in two weeks and I feel like I am going to bite some one's head off. Not only is it good for the body, it is good for the mind. I usually do some form of physical activity four times a week and it keeps my mind sane. I am relatively a happy, optimistic person and I believe cardio has a lot to do with that. (I guess I could just be a happy person but I tell myself that so I work out). 

Lastly, I have realized what each and every one of my friendships mean to me. All my friends hold a special place in my heart and even if we only see each other once a year or once a week, you are still special to me and serve a purpose in my life. Relationships are hard to maintain and I am not the most perfect friend but I truly care about people and their lives and I hope that all my friends know that. 

Overall, I have so many things on my mind but in a refreshing way! I want to do so many things right now but I know time will bring them to me. I need to take one step at a time and I will eventually achieve everything I want out of life. I think I am finally maturing and becoming a responsible little adult. :-) That's exciting news because I need to eventually grow up. I feel like I want to do so much that I am never going to have time for a family or for kids. It's weird because when I was in high school I always thought I would just get my degree done, get a job, and have a family. My views have changed so much since then and now I am thinking... will I even have time for a family? I hope so.

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