Another Year Down

I'm two hours away from another birthday and I feel a little different than usual because, well, it is different. I am an adult and have technically been one since my eighteen birthday but I think it is finally kicking in. My birthday this year at home had no steamers, balloons or extravagant cake but it was simple with family and a good dinner courtesy of my mommy. Don't get me wrong, my birthday dinner was excellent but it wasn't the same. I have finally realized that I will not have a "twelve year old birthday party" anymore and coming to grips with that is a little disappointing. A part of me wants to still be a kid and have a fun vivacious party but then a part of me wants to grow up and hang out with the adults and have interesting, intelligent conversations. Can't there be a middle ground? I hope I can find it because I think inside I will always be a kid. 

This week will be jam packed with two tests and a paper due but it is also filled with birthday plans as well. I think I have three dinners this week alone with people I love and I am so excited to see the ones I haven't seen in a long time. I love birthdays because it brings people together. I have already received a few gifts from a few special people and you know who you are! Thank you so much for your kindness and love! I don't know why I always feel guilty on my birthday when I get stuff... it's weird. I feel like you shouldn't be getting me something this great if anything at all. I guess I would rather give than receive (that's what she said) but it is nice to have a day all to yourself. I hope this week goes smoothly and I get enough sleep! Luckily we put the clocks back this past weekend, maybe that will help my cause. Hope you all have a good week. Don't forget to vote on Tuesday!

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